And here I am, simply moving forward...
I have been having a rough month. I bombed an exam in a class I really need to do well in. I am more and more nervous about my GPA falling below what it needs to be. I'm nervous about the comprehensive exams that are coming up on May 25th. On top of all that, I am unsure of where I want to work this summer. I already have a good position lined up at the biometry facility in the state, but I'm interviewing for another position on Thursday with a firm that I would also really like to work for. I'm kind of at an impasse. I'm being pulled in several different directions and I really don't know what to do. With all the studying, homework, exams, family functions, friends wanting to hang out (most recently at a birthday party) and trying to figure out what my life is going to consist of within the next couple of months, I'm more stressed out now than I ever was in college (although, I'm pretty sure that's the nature of the "grad school beast"). I just want it all to be over and my life to be figured out.
I think it may look like I'm kinda wishing my life away, but I'm really nervous about everything, and how it is affecting/going to affect my private life and my personal life. I don't know what to do. This seems to be a tragic flaw in the human condition: wanting immediate gratification and having to wait painfully long periods of time in order to get any kind of results. It's all rather frustrating.
Ah well, there's nothing I can do about wanting to have everything done all at once. Although having comps out of the way would be a huge monkey off of my back. PLEASE GO WELL!
Peace! (And thanks for reading.)
